Why must people keep acting like they understand every situation that people is getting over? Commenting alot and just simply saying people doing wrong things? I can't stop others from commenting on my page but, I freaking hate those people who just simply wants to gain attentions from others, commenting my action, and talking in the way like they are experienced. Well, today Im really pissed off after meeting up my ex and talking for a couple of time.
The topic are just the same damm thing again. I am so pissed off and tired of all these. The arguement wasn't finish after I sent her home. When I am on my way to subang I did a few sms with her and, I was keep telling her that I really got nothing with Leng yein ( simply bcz she is just keep on thinking that I do have something with Leng Yein WTF!!! ). I feel so sick of it. Whatever I explain she didn't wanna listen. Well, what to do.
The message that makes me feel so angry is the last msg that she sent me. Which is about, I am gonna go get my guy in the club now. =O I asked her why must she do this. she said that the body is hers and she have the right to do anything she likes. =__=
I am going crazy. I'd been suffering from past few weeks. One left without any notification. Another one is just like, wanna make me more emo. Is there any problem if i post my feelings on facebook? Why must you guys come and shoot me and say I make people looking down on me? SO WHAT IS THE FUCKING PROBLEM NOW? DO YOU GUYS REALLY HAVE PROBLEM WITH ME??
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
我还是我吗?
曾经以为，我是个很潇洒的人，可以说放就放。直到今天，我才发现原来我比一个女生还要不如。
我一直告诉你，我很看得开，但其实我很小心眼，只是我的小心眼不会让你看见。正是这样，在你眼中，你的离开并不会对我造成任何影响，你错了。也许在你眼里，我很花心，我很潇洒，其实我心底里只是个小男人。想要和我最爱的在一起，我可以为你做任何事。忍也忍了，说也说了，哭也哭了，最后我得到的，确实连一句话都没留下的离开？是你的决定？还是他的决定？应该都不重要了。
你一直告诉我，他阻止你打电话给我，facebook、msn也是他回我的。我很想知道，到底是什么，令你离不开他。我得不到答案。今天，有个朋友告诉我，你是被我搞烦了，所以换电话号码。她告诉我，要潇洒，女生最不喜欢拖泥带水的男生；也许我是，但这也只是因为我爱你，我不能随意的就放下。如果是以前的我，我会毫不犹豫的开始一段新感情，就算这是在麻醉自己也好，把她当成是救生圈也好，这一切一切都是以前我涌来麻醉自己的方法。去喝酒，找一夜情，只是为了不想。
现在，我做不到，因为我承诺过。
朋友们都在说，我们和一夜情什么分别，叫我别再想太多了，说我可以找到更好的。可是，我真的放不下，也许是我不想放下，因为我太固执了。每一个晚上，不管什么时候睡觉，我都会在半夜突然醒来，满脑子都是你。早上醒来，想的也是你。我很累，我恨自己为什么要这么专情？
我会继续过我的生活，想你又能怎样？我真的不能做任何事情，因为我走前了，而你却退后了。或许有一天你回来告诉我说，你们要结婚了或者是分手了；或许你就从此不再联络我了，我不知道。我会好好生活，我答应过你的。会定时吃，定时睡，等有一天你回来，我会是健健康康的。
***在这里我要谢谢那些一直陪着我，开解我的朋友。如果没有你们，我也许真的崩溃了。我会慢慢好起来的。
我一直告诉你，我很看得开，但其实我很小心眼，只是我的小心眼不会让你看见。正是这样，在你眼中，你的离开并不会对我造成任何影响，你错了。也许在你眼里，我很花心，我很潇洒，其实我心底里只是个小男人。想要和我最爱的在一起，我可以为你做任何事。忍也忍了，说也说了，哭也哭了，最后我得到的，确实连一句话都没留下的离开？是你的决定？还是他的决定？应该都不重要了。
你一直告诉我，他阻止你打电话给我，facebook、msn也是他回我的。我很想知道，到底是什么，令你离不开他。我得不到答案。今天，有个朋友告诉我，你是被我搞烦了，所以换电话号码。她告诉我，要潇洒，女生最不喜欢拖泥带水的男生；也许我是，但这也只是因为我爱你，我不能随意的就放下。如果是以前的我，我会毫不犹豫的开始一段新感情，就算这是在麻醉自己也好，把她当成是救生圈也好，这一切一切都是以前我涌来麻醉自己的方法。去喝酒，找一夜情，只是为了不想。
现在，我做不到，因为我承诺过。
朋友们都在说，我们和一夜情什么分别，叫我别再想太多了，说我可以找到更好的。可是，我真的放不下，也许是我不想放下，因为我太固执了。每一个晚上，不管什么时候睡觉，我都会在半夜突然醒来，满脑子都是你。早上醒来，想的也是你。我很累，我恨自己为什么要这么专情？
我会继续过我的生活，想你又能怎样？我真的不能做任何事情，因为我走前了，而你却退后了。或许有一天你回来告诉我说，你们要结婚了或者是分手了；或许你就从此不再联络我了，我不知道。我会好好生活，我答应过你的。会定时吃，定时睡，等有一天你回来，我会是健健康康的。
***在这里我要谢谢那些一直陪着我，开解我的朋友。如果没有你们，我也许真的崩溃了。我会慢慢好起来的。
Saturday, June 26, 2010
FInally
You finally did that to me. I love you but still you did that to me. Well, he is still that important to you, so I hope that your journey with him really goes well. I was trying to give myself a time, but now, is you who don't give me time, neither a chance.( may be is him )
Anyway, I am gonna live my life, You told me that you jealous because I flirt with other girls in facebook. Did you ever thought of what you did to me in the club. I felt the same damm thing. I was planning to buy something, for our monthlyvessary, for you to keep it as a memory. The proven of our love. But, it's all gone. I am going to keep all these up. Who knows one day, you might calling me up, and telling me that "dar, can I come and see you now? " this is what I wish to hear from you.
Since you made the final step, It's time for me to move. Whatever you said. I really don't want to remember. But I will remember whatever I told you.
Anyway, I am gonna live my life, You told me that you jealous because I flirt with other girls in facebook. Did you ever thought of what you did to me in the club. I felt the same damm thing. I was planning to buy something, for our monthlyvessary, for you to keep it as a memory. The proven of our love. But, it's all gone. I am going to keep all these up. Who knows one day, you might calling me up, and telling me that "dar, can I come and see you now? " this is what I wish to hear from you.
Since you made the final step, It's time for me to move. Whatever you said. I really don't want to remember. But I will remember whatever I told you.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Feelings
It's been so long i never have this kind of feelings. I love, I Give, I suffer, ended up i got nothing. Friends had been asking me to think twice, whether we are suitable to be together, from what she said, she does, she is already telling me what's her decision. Unfortunately I couldn't let go. I love her with no doubt, im really willing to give her whatever I got. I mean it. She is telling me that he kept tracking on her phone, sms, facebook and msn. He sent alot of msgs to me with her phone, ask me not to disturb her anymore. But I heard from my friend, that her bf telling the different things. I am confuse. I am so blur.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
I got this from your page
我鼓足了勇气说出分手。我知道我会承受很大的痛苦。心里太乱，想了太多东西。第二天醒来，以为昨晚是一场梦。昨晚的短信还没删，一切都那么真实。
突然感觉心里酸酸的。虽然舍不得，但是已经放手了。男人<就该拿的起放的下。我知道心里会有留恋，会有如果。
但是，这样的感情太累了。我不再热衷什么，不再强求什么。我想以这样的方式来结束三年的感情。给你最后说一声再见。
以后路的还长，会改变很多东西。一直不是很了解你。不知道你是一个怎样的人。还是想祝福你以后的路要走好。呵，我现在是用什么身份给你说。没有资格了。
以后再也不会有谁会让我这样牵挂。或许是好事吧。至少自己不会那么伤心。以前不知道别人失恋的痛苦。现在自己体<会到了。我们终于还是分开了。看到以前的一点一滴，苦笑。心里的苦又有谁了解。
我还是像以前一样若无其事。还有很多话没有对你说。心里面再也不会有你了。我会珍藏这份记忆。至少对我来说它很重要。三年来，和你分分合合多少次。再好的感情也会有裂痕的。虽然我还是那么爱你。
第一次觉得放不下.
第一次心情像海洋.
第一次无力抵挡.
第一次会那么的渴望.
谢谢你给我带了前所未有快乐.只有在你身上.我才找的到一点恋爱的感觉.我早知道你不在乎了。我一直以为我会很快忘了你.我会在你面前装做多不在乎你.我会装的很快乐.我失去的只是一个不爱我的人.而你,却失去了一个爱你的人.
我们完了。
从现在开始就是自己一个人过了。以后别在那么投入了。
爱由一个微笑开始，用一个吻来成长，用一滴泪去结束.
当你爱上一个人而不被对方所爱，会是一件很受伤害的事。但最痛苦的莫过你爱一个人而却不得不分开。
如果有一天。你能到我的心里去,你一定会流泪。因为那里面全是我给你的爱。
如果有一天。我能到你的心里去,我也会流泪。因为那里面全是你的无所谓。
还未来的及感慨。
你已在不经意间离开。
终散成泡沫。
谁都不是谁的谁。
我很想对自己说。开心一点吧。其实没什么大不了。
可是……可是。我最放不下的人始终是你。一直都是。爱到最后。你还是你。我却不是那个自己。
是不是只有伤害才是唯一的退路。
是不是只有遗忘才是唯一的出路。
记的谁说过。遗忘并不是记忆真的消失了。只是你找不到了。但愿我能很快将你遗忘。
如果有一天。我们忘记了彼此。那该有多好。我给过你的一切。你随时可以抛弃。包括记忆。最后。还是只剩我一人。过完这一季。悲伤是否还是那么凉……
I got this post from facebook. It shows me how You feel. And it shows what I am feeling right now. I know you forced to make the decision but you couldn't let it go, like what I am. I will keep myself happy and I wish you are happy too. We don't know what will happen in our life, but i promise you. You will see the happy, healthy me.
Life is full with disappointments, and there are hopes too. I let go because it is not the time for me to have you. I strongly believe that if we really belongs to each other, we will be together one day. Who knows?
I have too many things wanted to let you know, and I will find my way. So, no worry. I will keep updating my blogs nowadays. Just for you to see, and to understand what I am doing lately. =) <3 YOu
突然感觉心里酸酸的。虽然舍不得，但是已经放手了。男人<就该拿的起放的下。我知道心里会有留恋，会有如果。
但是，这样的感情太累了。我不再热衷什么，不再强求什么。我想以这样的方式来结束三年的感情。给你最后说一声再见。
以后路的还长，会改变很多东西。一直不是很了解你。不知道你是一个怎样的人。还是想祝福你以后的路要走好。呵，我现在是用什么身份给你说。没有资格了。
以后再也不会有谁会让我这样牵挂。或许是好事吧。至少自己不会那么伤心。以前不知道别人失恋的痛苦。现在自己体<会到了。我们终于还是分开了。看到以前的一点一滴，苦笑。心里的苦又有谁了解。
我还是像以前一样若无其事。还有很多话没有对你说。心里面再也不会有你了。我会珍藏这份记忆。至少对我来说它很重要。三年来，和你分分合合多少次。再好的感情也会有裂痕的。虽然我还是那么爱你。
第一次觉得放不下.
第一次心情像海洋.
第一次无力抵挡.
第一次会那么的渴望.
谢谢你给我带了前所未有快乐.只有在你身上.我才找的到一点恋爱的感觉.我早知道你不在乎了。我一直以为我会很快忘了你.我会在你面前装做多不在乎你.我会装的很快乐.我失去的只是一个不爱我的人.而你,却失去了一个爱你的人.
我们完了。
从现在开始就是自己一个人过了。以后别在那么投入了。
爱由一个微笑开始，用一个吻来成长，用一滴泪去结束.
当你爱上一个人而不被对方所爱，会是一件很受伤害的事。但最痛苦的莫过你爱一个人而却不得不分开。
如果有一天。你能到我的心里去,你一定会流泪。因为那里面全是我给你的爱。
如果有一天。我能到你的心里去,我也会流泪。因为那里面全是你的无所谓。
还未来的及感慨。
你已在不经意间离开。
终散成泡沫。
谁都不是谁的谁。
我很想对自己说。开心一点吧。其实没什么大不了。
可是……可是。我最放不下的人始终是你。一直都是。爱到最后。你还是你。我却不是那个自己。
是不是只有伤害才是唯一的退路。
是不是只有遗忘才是唯一的出路。
记的谁说过。遗忘并不是记忆真的消失了。只是你找不到了。但愿我能很快将你遗忘。
如果有一天。我们忘记了彼此。那该有多好。我给过你的一切。你随时可以抛弃。包括记忆。最后。还是只剩我一人。过完这一季。悲伤是否还是那么凉……
I got this post from facebook. It shows me how You feel. And it shows what I am feeling right now. I know you forced to make the decision but you couldn't let it go, like what I am. I will keep myself happy and I wish you are happy too. We don't know what will happen in our life, but i promise you. You will see the happy, healthy me.
Life is full with disappointments, and there are hopes too. I let go because it is not the time for me to have you. I strongly believe that if we really belongs to each other, we will be together one day. Who knows?
I have too many things wanted to let you know, and I will find my way. So, no worry. I will keep updating my blogs nowadays. Just for you to see, and to understand what I am doing lately. =) <3 YOu
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